The Show Case Showdown

Before you read any further ask yourself this. Who are you really? If you were to get on the Price is Right, and make it to the show case showdown;  Are you going to pick the first prize or the second. The first prize you get to see what it is. It might not be what you want but you know what it is, or do your forgo it for the mysterious second prize?

I recently confessed my undying love to a close friend, only to have her tell me she only see me as a friend.  Rewind<< Thats not exactly what happened. When I told her how i felt she seemed taken a back by the notion. Then the idea excited her. She toyed with it for the next 4 hours. Talking about her expectations and where she felt it could go, but ultimately  she said she had to sleep on it.

The next day when we spoke she gave me a straight strong arm no! Followed by i don't see you like that. I couldn't understand how her whole style changed. She said we had been friends since the 4th grade and she didn't see me like that. So when i inquired how she saw me, she replied as her best female friend. Someone she could talk to about her problems. 

So then i posed the question, “What would be easier to turn a best friend into a mate or turning a mate into a best friend?”

I told her I'm the fucking Jet ski in the first show case showdown, you are going to pass on me for a mystery prize? I stressed to her she knew me she knew my strengths and short comings. Why pass on me for something you not even sure is out there?  

I have always leaned more towards girls, because hey we rock, but after this situation I think I'm going to be on the dick train. (Pun intended) 

Who turns down a for sure diamond for a lump of coal?

This whole situation has killed my already fragile self-esteem and now I'm starting to doubt myself.  


FUCK MY LIFE!!!